so as expected he read my blog. and we talked on the phone for a good 15 minutes which he spent trying to get me to say it out loud. i wanted to curl up in a ball, crawl into a hole and stay there. too much pressure. i admitted it. granted it was in blog form but i put it out there somehow. and it wasn't enough. am i wrong? its been 3 years. he can't expect it to be that easy for me to just say it. i feel uncomfortable.
crawling into my hole now.